Caitlin Rose

 Today I faced past demons that I never thought I'd have the courage to face
I did it.. In my psychology class, with full acceptance, with people who understand
I never knew  that there were so many supportive people who were only a few feet away.

 Life for the most part is going rather well lately (of course besides the current medical havac going on with my beloved mum).  Getting a new phone tomorrow, which is good because my current one is having some issues with text messaging, as in it doesn't recieve half the ones that are being sent to me, and all I do with my phone is text so that is a big problem. College is fine. I love my psychology class, and my teacher is amazing. He really expresses that people with disorders are still people and should be treated as such. I really wish I could switch my major to psychology but with having to get a doctorate I really dont know if i would be able to handle that time-wise or finatually. 

Ted and I are doing extremely well, I don't want to jinx anyting because everytime i seem to start talking about relationships in a good light, they turn to crap. So I shall leave my commentary about my relationship rather short: This weekend I'm hanging out with him at his place for what seems to be some sort of party on saturday, and sunday him and I are going to a garden party with his mother & father which should be very enjoyable.

I'm becoming addicted to thrift shops. I plan to venture to several within the next week+. I love all the neat finds, I'm planning to use things I find for things in my room. I love the typical good prices too. There are several thrifts in the area that I still need to browse, so updates on them will probably come later. I found a new thrift shop that is close to lawrence park. Its actually close to Produce Junction where I just bought myself a potted Orchid its a Phalaenopsis which is supposed to be a good starter.
 

I'm re-doing my room. I am finally on my last piece of furniture to paint. I already finished my desk (with 7 drawers) a tall bura (5 drawers) a long short bura (3 drawers) a 7ft or so book case, a stool, and a make up table (5 drawers). Thats a hell of alot of drawers to paint and add new hardware to. I'm happy I decided to re-finish my bedroom set the desk, and two buras were previously owned my my decesed grandmother. My mum thinks they were her first set of furniture after getting married, then the furniture was used in my mums nursery and my uncles bedrooms. So its really apart of my family's past and I feel good about having it and fixing it up. It was in pretty bad shape for the few years I had it before, but a fresh coat of paint some wood glue, clamps and some new hardware really fixed it up. I dont have much left to do for my room, I just have to paint the walls a new color (probably gray), the woodwork, and find a comforter that works well, and a few little nic-nacs to add visual appeal because its rather stark at the moment. Probably will buy a new computer chair and new lamps as well. 

Probably will do my room in this style

 But in these colors

 Or a mesh of both styles but in blue/grays Hmm, I suppose I should probably look for a new headboard as well since i threw out my old broken one. hmm *off to the thrift shops for everything accept comforter* and that probably means more mindless painting... gah.

The doctors think my mom might have cancer again







there is nothing I can do to change this
and its killing me

 sometimes i feel like a glass building, with a rocks being thrown at it

Alright, I've been leaving lots of cryptic like entries, and I've realized, those entries... are irritating. Time for a real entry. 

Life for the most part has been amazing. I have a boyfriend (yes, I know the whole "I think I might be a lesbian thing" but to be honest, I like both genders, I was just so hurt by men that I sort of for the moment gave up but now I’m trying again, and if this one doesn't work for at least a little while then I might not be with a man for a while) anyway, his name is Ted, I met him at his work, and he's a great guy (pessimistic view: well see how long this lasts, I’ve made entries like this before about men) and I have so far enjoyed myself extremely with him. He is very caring, open minded, and willing to help when things aren’t going well. Hopefully this lasts more then a typical relationship of mine (3-5 months on average then I get bored, detached, or they get bored and we end up breaking up) the relationship seems to be going extremely well. 

My hair is now a bit shorter then what it looked like when I last posted picture. I like it; it’s sort of like a pixie. I need to figure out how to style my hair because at the moment, it’s not going very well. The products I use don’t leave my hair feeling at all nice and my hair sticks up in all different directions (damn curly hair). I think I'm going to keep it short though, because it’s easy and I like short hair, most females have long hair, this helps me stand out a bit. Other then that body wise there is not much going on. I'm doing yoga on a daily basis now; it relaxes me and actually helps me sleep better throughout the night. I couldn't care if I lost weight because of it though, I've reached a point finally in which I’m not bitching about my body anymore like a ton of my old entries ("ohh em gee I want to loose like 30 lbsss I’m so fat blah blah blah'') I weigh more now then I did then, but now I don’t care. :) 

I bought a Louis Vuitton bag today. I bought it for around $60 it's a real Louie bag, I bought it from a thrift shop near DCCC. I went online to find out how much the bag is sold for (and if its style is still sold) and the bag goes for (brand new) $1040. I almost fell over. The bag is in almost perfect condition, I looked it over and I didn't see a scratch on it. There is a Fendi, Gucci and Burburry bag(s) still at the shop, so I think I'm going to pick up at least one of them tomorrow. I mean, I can’t pass up a deal like that. 

Life is for the moment going well. Let’s see how things keep going.