Caitlin Rose

1011100010 @ 2009-07-02T10:10:00

2009-07-02T14:16:44Z

I am absolutely not enjoying my summer so far. I wanted to go to museums and enjoy my time but because of work everyday I can't. I'm pretty much pulling full time work hours at B&N right now and also working with the Burgess' adds more time. I'm making good money but my hours for b&n suck. I wish I worked mornings so I could actually use the rest of my day productively. I work mid day usually to mid night so it leaves me little time to go out and get things done. Its boring and bothersome.

James Dean sits next to me in History Class..

2009-04-23T13:20:34Z

I do believe that the embodiment of James Dean sits next to me during my history class. I'm horribly distracted by it, but in an enjoyable almost blissful way. I constantly stare at him, and I sure hope he doesn't notice. Its just strange to me to see such suave style and dashing looks at a college that also holds students who are covered in tattoos to the point that is shocking, students who have style thats utterly drab (such as mine) or people who push the sexuality of attire just too far. He though looks like he walked off a set of a movie, or just jumped out of his Porsche Spyder. Pure sex but not vulgar, stylish without being fussy... its lovely to be near

Now that all that is out of my system time to get to some real information. I'm getting my associates this year during my first semester of summer classes. I need two classes left and they are silly things such as public speaking nothing horribly vital at this point. Then off to West Chester I go..

I can't wait for this semester to be over though. I am bordering on hating this college, I just feel like I've been here too long and need to move on to bigger things than this. Hopefully West Chester can fix such a problem. But I'm not so sure if that will either. I think a big factor is I don't really enjoy or have any interest in the classes I'm currently taking. Earth Science, College Math II, Educational Psychology, History of Science.. nothing really fits for me. Work isn't helping either. I really fudged up something I was working on the last day I was at work. I hope that doesn't come back to haunt me. Everyone has bad days I didn't loose money for the store, or see someone steal a book and say nothing, I'm honest to manager's about when I mess up and for the most part try to make up for it. I just need to keep this job, I've never been fired before, and hope never to be. I like saying goodbye on my own terms. I wish I could just watch children as my job. Getting payed under the table is nice, I mean I don't make enough to the point where I actually have to report it anyway...

Seeing Steven Lynch on saturday and Jim Gaffigan soon as well. Both should be very fun and I'm going with Teddy so it is bound to be fun. Mentioning Theodore he and I have been together for a little over a year now, which in comparison to my previous love life track record is very good. Him and I are going to a wedding in Boston in may during finals. I think a several hour drive is going to be quite a test for our relationship. I'll bring cds and things to keep myself occupied, that way I'm not a huge bother to him while he's driving. I would offer to help drive if not for the fact that I don't know the area of boston at all and I don't drive a manual car. I suppose I should learn both of those things one day.

1011100010 @ 2009-03-12T23:51:00

2009-03-13T04:01:51Z

I haven't posted in here for so long. It's not even like I'm insanely busy. I just really don't know what to say. Currently I'm utterly sick of college. I mean I honestly can't stand it. Its like reliving senior year of high school all over again, I just want to move on to something new and get away. West Chester is in fall. I don't even know If I'm all to motivated about that either. I mean West Chester was something I was looking so forward to when I first started college, but now I don't even know. I'm sure I'll enjoy it, but I also face everything I do with fear.

I've been in a relationship for a bit over a year now and I still have no idea what my sexual identity is. Your not gay, your not straight, your almost twenty and still confused? Get it together.

I also have intense neck pain almost all the time lately. It runs from the beginning of my neck up into my head. I'm hoping my brain is improperly pressing on my brain stem and and I'll pass out at go into a coma, because for the love of god I need a break from life right now.

At least I get to go to KOP tomorrow. It has been what I've been looking forward to all week. Perhaps shopping will make me a smidge happier?

1011100010 @ 2008-12-10T21:12:00

2008-12-11T05:15:34Z

I am such a bad student its not even funny..

this procrastination will be the death of me one day.

Cait + eBay = Joy

2008-12-08T18:55:16Z

So I finally realized how amazing eBay is. I just sold 2 items, and I'm pretty happy with how much I got for them. I've bought around 5-6 things on eBay, and I've been extremely happy with the purchases. I'm starting to like the internet again.

Currently classes are insane, I have 3 projects to work on, 3 papers to write, one presentation to make for my art class, 2 quizzes and two final exams, and a take home exam. BOO this is too much to do in a week & 1/2 :(

In other news most of my holiday shopping is done. Which is great, although I might still buy more for Ted because I dont think i bought him enough stuff yet.

I can not wait till break.. oh crap i still need to pick next semesters classes....

1011100010 @ 2008-10-27T13:57:00

2008-10-27T21:34:12Z

1* First grade teacher's name: Ms Martin

2* Last word you said: "Okay"

3* Last song you sang: Best for Last - Adele

4* Last person you hugged: My puppy Maddie this morning when she hopped in my bed

5* Last thing you laughed at: Something on the tele

6* Last time you said I dont remember: hmm, not quite sure.. probably earlier today.

7* Last time you cried: It's kinda been a while.

8* Last time you poured super hot fudge all over yourself: Umm.. Never?

9* What color socks are you wearing: I don't have any on.

10. whats under your bed?Box of clothing, at least seven boxes of shoes, Boxes filled with items from ex's. Lot of Boxes.

11* What time did you wake up today: around 7:45am

12* Current taste: O'coco's

13* Current hair: Un-brushed

15* Current annoyance: Plumbers Union Non-sense

16* Current longing: The weekend

17* Current desktop background: Basic Background found on MacBooks, even though I have a Dell desktop

18* Current worry: Humanities course

19* Current hate: Political Ads

20* Current favorite article of clothing: New Ralph Lauren Denim Jacket

21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred gender: Smile, Its a make or break deal. Bad Teeth = No Go

22* Last CD that you listened to: The entire CD? The Shins - Wincing the Night Away

23* Favorite place to be: Probably Lazing about with Ted

24* Least favorite place: Doctor's offices with Mum

25* Time you wake up in the morning: T/TR - 6am, M/W/F - 7:30 - 10:30am

26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: Piano

27* Favorite color: Green

28* Do you believe in an afterlife: Not Sure

29* How tall are you: 5'4.75"

30* Current favorite word/saying: Oh Shenanigans

31* Favorite book: Too Many

32* Favorite season: Autumn

33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Grand Mum

34* Song currently listening to: The tele about serial Killers, THS Investigates

35* Where do you want to go to college: Currently at DCCC, Planning on attending West Chester In the next year to year 1/2

36* What is your career going to be like: A little stressing, but enjoyable, financially stable (after a few years at it) and fulfilling

37* How many kids do you want: When the times is right probably 2-3

Have you ever.........

38* Eaten an entire gallon bucket of ice cream in one day: Nope

39* Said "I love you" and meant it: Yup

40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: Err no?

41* Been to New York: Yes

42* Been to Florida: Yes

43* Been to California: Nope

44* Been to Hawaii: No.

45* Been to Mexico: Nope

46* Been to China: No

48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Nope

50* Sent someone to the hospital: Had potential to.

51* Been naked in public: No way.

Other:

52* Do you have a crush on someone: No

53* What book are you reading now? Robinson Crusoe, Living Religion (Textbook), Theories of Personality(Textbook), Children and Their Art (Textbook). Lots of reading for school

54* Worst feeling in the world: Letting down loved ones

55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: I can sleep in yay!

56* How many rings before you answer: Eh I get to it when I can find my phone, so a lot of rings I guess.

57* Future daughter's name: No Idea

58* Future son's name: I like the name(s) Aidan and Patrick

59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Nope, I have a little Starbucks bear though.

60* If you could have any job you wanted: I'd probably be something ridiculous like an Ice Cream tester, something silly and fun.

61* Wish you were: Smarter, Better Organized, and Financially Set, oh and a Better Speller

62* College plans: Study, Study, Study, Starbucks, Study, Boyfriend, Study, Study, More Coffee.

63* Piercings: A few

64* Do you do smoke : Ew No

65* Do you drink: I'll Have a New Castle or a Young's Chocolate Stout Every once in a while.

67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Whatever is in the house. I'm not too picky

68* What are you most scared of: Ending up a bitter Spinster

69* What clothes do you sleep in: Tee shirts, Shorts.

70* Who is the last person that called you? Mo, The most awesome Manager Ever.

71* Where do you want to get married: Some place dramatic, like the Art Museum, somethings with architectural beauty

72* If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? Be more outgoing, relaxed, and focused.

73* Who do you really hate: At the moment, not really anyone.

74* Been In Love: I think so.

75* Are you timely or always late: On time or Early lately.

76* Do you have a job: Yes, Barnes & Noble

77* Do you like being around people: At times.

78* Best feeling in the world: Love, Being Calm, to not care.

79* Are you for world peace: I would say so, not going to happen, but still for it.

80* Are you a health freak: I'm too much of a foodie to be.

81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: eh used to, not anymore.

82* Do you want someone you don't have? nope

83* Are you lonely right now: Nah

84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: Yeah

85* Do you want to get married: If the time is right

86* Do you want kids? Not sure

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

87* Cried: No.

88* Bought Something: No

89* Gotten Sick: No.

90* Sang: In the Car

91* Said I Love You: Yes.

92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: No.

93* Met Someone: Nope

94* Moved On: from what?

95* Talked To Someone: Ted, and Mum.

96* Had A Serious Talk: Little bit

97* Missed Someone: Nah

98* Hugged Someone: Yes.

99* Yelled at Someone: No.

100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Nope.

1011100010 @ 2008-10-21T11:13:00

2008-10-21T18:13:28Z

I didn't know that Barack and Johnny liked to talk about my father so damn much

Joe the Plumber strikes again.

Little Update.

2008-09-28T21:54:55Z

Things are still going rather well. Ted & I are well, nothing really too interesting to note in the relationship department. Seeing Mike Birbiglia on Saturday with Ted so that should be very enjoyable. I just ordered a new pair of eyeglasses, Ray Ban's. They are wonderful, sleek black plastic. I find metal glasses to be dreadful, and with my black glasses I feel like I'm able to hide a little. Odd I know, but still its all in the way one feels. I've fallen in love with designer sun glasses. Over the summer I bought a pair of Coach Samantha White a pair of Kate Spade Kitt/s Gray and a pair of Burberry Classic Aviators Brown. I am now addicted to sunglasses. Too bad its almost fall :( and i wont be able to use them as much.

I got a job at Barnes & Nobles. I had my first day today. Training went fine, and I suppose I'll be working a lot on register. I hope I'll be doing more floor work though. Everyone I work with seems great. The managers seems really nice, and everyone else seems great too. My classes are going well, I think I'v got an A in pretty much everything at the moment. So I suppose I should be very happy with the way things are going...

1011100010 @ 2008-08-30T09:55:00

2008-08-30T14:06:59Z

The Nine Inch Nails concert was amazing. Everything about it was wonderful, Ted was so wonderful to be around, the people around us seemed nice enough, Trent sounded AMAZING, there was a good ratio of new and old songs and he played a ton of songs I loved. It was so amazing that Ted got the tickets to celebrate 6 months together. It was the best concert ever!!!

1011100010 @ 2008-08-26T23:35:00

2008-08-27T03:44:58Z

When Ted and I share an embrase, at times I am over taken by emotion. Tears well up in my eyes as I am stricken with fear at the thought of loosing him. Yet I'm still scared by the thought of fully expessing my emotions to him

Summer is slowly coming to a close

2008-08-18T00:34:39Z

and I'm not sure if i'll miss it or not. It wasn't a dreadfully bad summer, but also not a ridiculously good one. A good aspect was hanging with Ted, our time together was very relaxed, i hope this relaxation doesn't lead to boredom further down the path of our relationship. I'm optimistic that it wont. The Radiohead concert was very enjoyable accept for 2 drunks who irritated the hell out of me, I started screaming at one. Ted didn't appreciate that too much, but i don't want some drunk bastard falling on top of me. A group of people behind us were talking about all the drugs they were doing before the concert. I think they dropped some acid, they were really messed up, and loud, and obnoxious. When Radiohead started it made it worth it though. Their set list wasn't too bad, not a great mix of old and new but thats because they want to place emphasis on their new album. I love Thom Yorke's voice, its angelic. I can hear him singing daily on my NEW touch iPod. :) 32 gigs of beauty. I love it, what a good purchase. Ted ordered it for me, I was going to buy a refurbished touch but Ted secretly bought the new one instead, and got it inscribed. He can be so clever and cute at times. I'm afraid him and I hit a slump, but when I think about it, we haven't. I think its my issues with depression that are the problem. I've been feeling just down lately. Not to mention I've been having big sleeping issues, and I got rather sick a week or so ago. School starts soon, hopefully the depression issues go away by then, I can only hope. I usually have issues with it in august and mid winter. Still haven't figured out why..

Been a while since i updated...

2008-08-01T01:05:24Z

and i really dont have much to say.

Things have been ok lately. I usually only use this thing to vent when I'm angry. I just haven't been angry lately. I have no reason to be. A few things have happened since my last update though..

I returned a lost puppy to its owner

I turned 19

I had an amazing birthday with Teddy, went to the Pirates Exhibit, then out to dinner at Caribou Cafe.

Met Ted's best friend Sam, she is awesome.

Got tickets to see Nine Inch Nails and Radiohead, I'm looking forward to those concerts.

Saw the new Batman movie, which was AMAZING

Got into a Hit & Run car accident, got some wicked whip-lash

Last but not least I picked my classes for next semester.

Psychology - Personality Theories
Humanities - World Religion
Sociology - Intro to Sociology
English - Brit Lit to the 1800's
Art - Art and Child Development

Well that was a good update I suppose. Gosh my life is a bore haha, I hope everyone is having an enjoyable summer.

Its almost 3 am..

2008-07-06T07:01:09Z

I have 3 days left until my birthday, which honestly seems so strange to me. It's been around 365 days since I've last written about my birth. I don't think the years I have been on this earth really give any description of who I am. My age in years does not describe the age I feel I am. I am not some silly youth pretending to act older or in a sense more mature. I feel old, well not old but I don't feel that 19 is the age I'm currently at mentally. Maybe its because my social groups consisting of those who are a bit older, maybe its because my interactions with people my own age seem to never go anywhere because I feel the conversation leads to a pathetic mesh of teenage jargon and nonsensical generic information being thrown about. So.. I'm going to be 19.. hopefully it will be enjoyable.

My first year of college is finally coming to a close..

2008-05-16T02:03:45Z

and it feels great. I worked my ass off in comparison to how much effort I put in, in high school. I'm done my Abnormal Psychology, English Composition II, History and Mathematics courses. I still have an optional Philosophy final. The final includes a big pain-in-the-ass test and an essay that is due when I walk into the class. As I stand now my grades are

Abnormal Psychology. . . . . . . . . . .B
English Composition II . . . . . . . . .B
American History I . . . . . . . . . . . . .N/A probably an A
Mod Coll Math I . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .B+
Intro to Philosophy . . . . . . . . . . . . .C unknown w/o optional final.

As long as I end up with an A in history I'll still have a 3.0. Although I wish I did better, a 3.0 isn't horrible. I just will have to try harder next time. My classes ending for the most part were great. I couldn't wait to be done with math, english, and philosophy. History was pretty enjoyable and I thought my teacher was a good guy. The end of my abnormal psychology class though, was very bitter-sweet. We had to hand in our last exam, took a small quiz, and had a party. It was so nice to see everyone just enjoying themselves. I never realized untill that class what problems people have to face. It shocked me, and brought me closer because I realized I'm alot alike everyone else. I will be taking another class with my teacher Mr. Henley. He had such a large impact on that class being as amazing as it was. It was special, something that you dont expierience very often.

I bought myself a headboard and footboard. I went to the local thrift shop and payed $12 for it. Its very vintage and nice, it needs a good coat of paint and then it will look fantastic. I'll probably post pictures later, I think the footboard is cute but I already slammed my toes on it twice. My room is really starting to come together, I have tons more of painting to do, which I'm slightly dreading because I see my summer filled with lots and lots of painting. I still have to finish the doors, walls, woodwork and headboard/footboard. Gah too much painting.

Ted is going away for the weekend with his brother so hopefully I can fill up my time by working quite a lot. I know I'm working Saturday morning, and either friday or saturday night. Also by cleaning my room like a mad man so I can prep for more painting. I'll probably visit him tomorrow at work, and then when he is done to say goodbye before he departs.

I'm happy school is almost over, My Philosophy teacher said I had a D in his class, he said i was missing 2 homeworks, I was in actually I was missing none. It pisses me off that if i didn't catch that I would have ended up with a D rather than a C. And after pointing that out he didn't even cut me some slack after almost fucking up my grade. What the hell honestly thats rediculous, I mean he fucked up and I almost payed the price for it, and then I dont even get a sorry, all he did was inform me of the change. That man really needs to swallow his pride and do the right thing. I am going to make everyone aware of this situation so that no one else had to deal with this non sense.

Next Fall I'm going to really do a good job of picking my teachers, it seems that every semester I get a real dud of a teacher.

1011100010 @ 2008-05-01T15:14:00

2008-05-01T19:16:50Z

Today I faced past demons that I never thought I'd have the courage to face
I did it.. In my psychology class, with full acceptance, with people who understand
I never knew that there were so many supportive people who were only a few feet away.

1011100010 @ 2008-04-30T19:21:00

2008-05-01T00:38:50Z

Life for the most part is going rather well lately (of course besides the current medical havac going on with my beloved mum). Getting a new phone tomorrow, which is good because my current one is having some issues with text messaging, as in it doesn't recieve half the ones that are being sent to me, and all I do with my phone is text so that is a big problem. College is fine. I love my psychology class, and my teacher is amazing. He really expresses that people with disorders are still people and should be treated as such. I really wish I could switch my major to psychology but with having to get a doctorate I really dont know if i would be able to handle that time-wise or finatually.

Ted and I are doing extremely well, I don't want to jinx anyting because everytime i seem to start talking about relationships in a good light, they turn to crap. So I shall leave my commentary about my relationship rather short: This weekend I'm hanging out with him at his place for what seems to be some sort of party on saturday, and sunday him and I are going to a garden party with his mother & father which should be very enjoyable.

I'm becoming addicted to thrift shops. I plan to venture to several within the next week+. I love all the neat finds, I'm planning to use things I find for things in my room. I love the typical good prices too. There are several thrifts in the area that I still need to browse, so updates on them will probably come later. I found a new thrift shop that is close to lawrence park. Its actually close to Produce Junction where I just bought myself a potted Orchid its a Phalaenopsis which is supposed to be a good starter.

I'm re-doing my room. I am finally on my last piece of furniture to paint. I already finished my desk (with 7 drawers) a tall bura (5 drawers) a long short bura (3 drawers) a 7ft or so book case, a stool, and a make up table (5 drawers). Thats a hell of alot of drawers to paint and add new hardware to. I'm happy I decided to re-finish my bedroom set the desk, and two buras were previously owned my my decesed grandmother. My mum thinks they were her first set of furniture after getting married, then the furniture was used in my mums nursery and my uncles bedrooms. So its really apart of my family's past and I feel good about having it and fixing it up. It was in pretty bad shape for the few years I had it before, but a fresh coat of paint some wood glue, clamps and some new hardware really fixed it up. I dont have much left to do for my room, I just have to paint the walls a new color (probably gray), the woodwork, and find a comforter that works well, and a few little nic-nacs to add visual appeal because its rather stark at the moment. Probably will buy a new computer chair and new lamps as well.

Probably will do my room in this style

But in these colors

Or a mesh of both styles but in blue/grays Hmm, I suppose I should probably look for a new headboard as well since i threw out my old broken one. hmm *off to the thrift shops for everything accept comforter* and that probably means more mindless painting... gah.

1011100010 @ 2008-04-24T04:23:00

2008-04-24T20:26:46Z

The doctors think my mom might have cancer again

there is nothing I can do to change this
and its killing me

1011100010 @ 2008-04-16T17:17:00

2008-04-17T00:18:29Z

sometimes i feel like a glass building, with a rocks being thrown at it

1011100010 @ 2008-04-06T15:02:00

2008-04-06T19:03:53Z

I went back to the thrift shop and picked up two more bags. A burburry and a vintage chanel. Also i bought myself a new wallet which is gucci. Gosh I love thrift shops..

1011100010 @ 2008-04-04T23:24:00

2008-04-05T03:45:07Z

Alright, I've been leaving lots of cryptic like entries, and I've realized, those entries... are irritating. Time for a real entry.

Life for the most part has been amazing. I have a boyfriend (yes, I know the whole "I think I might be a lesbian thing" but to be honest, I like both genders, I was just so hurt by men that I sort of for the moment gave up but now I’m trying again, and if this one doesn't work for at least a little while then I might not be with a man for a while) anyway, his name is Ted, I met him at his work, and he's a great guy (pessimistic view: well see how long this lasts, I’ve made entries like this before about men) and I have so far enjoyed myself extremely with him. He is very caring, open minded, and willing to help when things aren’t going well. Hopefully this lasts more then a typical relationship of mine (3-5 months on average then I get bored, detached, or they get bored and we end up breaking up) the relationship seems to be going extremely well.

My hair is now a bit shorter then what it looked like when I last posted picture. I like it; it’s sort of like a pixie. I need to figure out how to style my hair because at the moment, it’s not going very well. The products I use don’t leave my hair feeling at all nice and my hair sticks up in all different directions (damn curly hair). I think I'm going to keep it short though, because it’s easy and I like short hair, most females have long hair, this helps me stand out a bit. Other then that body wise there is not much going on. I'm doing yoga on a daily basis now; it relaxes me and actually helps me sleep better throughout the night. I couldn't care if I lost weight because of it though, I've reached a point finally in which I’m not bitching about my body anymore like a ton of my old entries ("ohh em gee I want to loose like 30 lbsss I’m so fat blah blah blah'') I weigh more now then I did then, but now I don’t care. :)

I bought a Louis Vuitton bag today. I bought it for around $60 it's a real Louie bag, I bought it from a thrift shop near DCCC. I went online to find out how much the bag is sold for (and if its style is still sold) and the bag goes for (brand new) $1040. I almost fell over. The bag is in almost perfect condition, I looked it over and I didn't see a scratch on it. There is a Fendi, Gucci and Burburry bag(s) still at the shop, so I think I'm going to pick up at least one of them tomorrow. I mean, I can’t pass up a deal like that.

Life is for the moment going well. Let’s see how things keep going.

1011100010 @ 2008-03-16T03:45:00

2008-03-16T06:53:38Z

I feel like I'm going to vomit
I don't know what it could be
the current physical issue?
something i ate, perhaps?

..no..

Its that feeling of impending doom
that one that sneeks up on you
just when you start to think everying
for just one moment
could actually
be going
okay

this is so minor, but this could affect everything

1011100010 @ 2008-03-03T09:50:00

2008-03-03T13:49:53Z

Could things actually be going really well for once?
Lets see how long this lasts.

1011100010 @ 2008-02-07T11:39:00

2008-02-07T16:41:47Z

I love laurence park shopping center's Starbucks. Oh let me explain

One, I'm known by name and what drink I will be having and in what size

Two, 3/4ths of the people who work there are awesome! There is one skinny girl there who gets on my nerves though

Three, Um.. Ted makes a mean white mocha, and its awesome to talk to him while he's on break..

overall, very good day so far, lets hope it stays that way.

Life is slowely but surely moving forward

2008-01-31T03:27:23Z

           College so well is going, I would say pretty well. My Philosophy teacher, and my Abnormal Psychology teacher are amazing. I love their teaching styles even though they are extremely different. I want to be a blend of both of them when I become a teacher. One is very sweet and kind, willing to listen to his students. The other is sharp witted, fast paced in thought, and extremely sarcastic. Oh and they're both coffee lovers. How amazingly wondeful is that? Oh its very.

          I'm currently sick with an extremely bad cold/virus. It honestly is dreadful, I need to pick up something that contains vitamin C. I would try the whole "natural go eat an orange" thing but oranges rip up my stomach, but I did have potatos earlier which are a good source of vitamin C. I really hope this goes away soon, its having a large effect on how I spend my days. I wake up feeling dreadful which really makes me not want to get out of bed, by the time I'm in school my nose runs so badly that I constantly have to have a tissue in hand to deal with it. I get home, and I'm so tired that I try to grab a few minutes of shut-eye. Get up, take more meds for my cold, try to get homework done, and just other things I want to do (Like finally finish the last ending of Silent Hill Origins), shower, take more meds and get to bed. But I only get a few hours of sleep before I start coffing. Ugh.

         A good thing that is going on currently though is the fact that I'm finally adding the music I want on to my iPod. I still have around 50 of my own cds to add, and 30 of my dads (yes I steal his music). While I was going through his/my moms music I found so many good cds/bands, such as garbage, pete yorn, dmb, alice in chains foo fighters, the cranberries, duncan sheik.. lots of wonderful 90's music. I hope to add all of these within the next few days, so then I have a good selection to pick from while driving. Lately I've been listening to alot of Jim Croce, a classic but amazing artist.

           I've been trying to eat better which I'm doing ok at, instead of having soda/sugar drink (which I rarely have) I now choose water, or a diet soda (well diet isn't a big difference, but its better then before!) lemon or lime in water is wondeful, and so simplistic. Instead of those little "100 calorie packs" I have a granola bar that high in fiber low in fat and low in calories, or I'll have an apple or grapes. I actually am being active, which for a bum like me is estonishing. I still can't really kick my java habit, but its also just nice to sit in starbucks with my cup of joe and study. There is one guy who works at starbucks (in laurence park) that is just the biggest sweetie-pie, everytime I go in and he's there he makes me smile, he's just extremely sociable and nice.

           Mike and I have been hanging out a lot lately. When I think back about high school I just never could picture him and I being friends. But its enjoyable, I don't quite understand some of his views.. like pro-life, [or voting for Obama] and what not but I don't think that will ever be something I'll understand. I just try my best to shut up about that most of the time. I hope instaff days come soon, because I really want a few days off from class, I get overly stressed. My psych tests kill me, and from what I heard my philosophy teacher is a very hard test giver/grader. I really want a 3.5 or higher and I know if I keep buggin' out and putting myself down its never going to happen. I just have to relax...

                                                                                                                                        I   don't know   who     I'm    kidding
                                                                                                                                       Imagining            you                  care
                                                                                                                                       And I   could    stand   here   waiting
                                                                                                                                       A        fool      for       another       day
                                                                                                                                     But I don't suppose it's worth the price
                                                                                                                                       The    price     that     I    would   pay

1011100010 @ 2008-01-11T22:50:00

2008-01-12T03:52:28Z

Oh I for got to post pics of my hair..

and

loveee it.